So, on the 11th of June I asked you to call it a comeback and finally and proudly announced my triumphant returns to my FitFat life. And then I got busy doing it. Here's the skinny (HA!) on what's been going on.
|Food: The Good Girl's Drug by Sunny Sea Gold|
|It Starts with Food - Whole30 with Dallas & Melissa Hartwig|
I know what you're thinking, but here is my reasoning. First of all, I don't consider this a "diet" in the traditional sense of the word. Yes, it deals with eating and restriction of certain foods, but to me Whole30 has always been and always will be two things: a cleanse for my body and a break in bad habits with the formation of good ones. It's food exploration. It's like survival instincts at work. What would happen if I took away all of your modern go-to for energy foods and handed you restrictions that said: only meat, veggies, some fruits, and healthy fats. What happens is you start reading labels. You start considering your food sources. You start realizing that while you CAN cook at home EVERY SINGLE NIGHT, you really don't want to, so then you start trying to figure out how to survive in the real world in places like resturants where about 95% of the menu is either coated in sugar, grains or dairy, or a combination of all three.
What also happens? You try new foods. You realize how good REAL food tastes. You start tasting an apple for the sake of the apple and realize just how sweet that must have tasted to the first people on earth and why it might have been considered "forbidden" because of it's natural goodness. You also stop having serious stomach and digestion issues. You start having more energy and clarity, even when you're dog-ass tired. You can't figure out why you're running so well even though you still have all the same stressors - work, family, housecleaning, bills to pay - AND you're adding cooking and cleaning up after cooking adventures to your list at least 2-3 times a day.
I'm on day 13 of my third round of Whole30. The first time I think I made it to day 8 before I gave in. The second time - day 28. This time I plan on taking it all the way. And the only problems I'm having are: I get really hungry sometimes, like intrinsically hungry, not craving hungry...and if you haven't felt that in a while, it's a strange feeling that doesn't always happen just in your gut. Second problem - I need a LOT of time to cook. Especially since I don't do double duty in the kitchen when I do Whole30. When I eat this way, so does my family, to a point. This time Hubs has agreed to join me. His only little change was that he still wants to have half-and-half in his coffee, but he's drinking less coffee anyhow, and it's his program and his body, not mine. The kids still munch on junk food and can go grab a burger at McD's if they so choose, but for the most part, they're eating Whole30 as well. My youngest actually came up to me and said, "I think I can go back to one or even NONE of my daily laxatives for the month!" (He has encopresis that is further complicated by issues with processing dairy.)
The physical downsides have all been mental, though. I have continued to fight with myself about wanting to taste the creaminess of ice cream, but I'm trying to find ways that, once I'm finished with Whole30, I can curb those texture needs with things that aren't going to cause issues with my intestinal tract. The one difference between round 3 of Whole30 and rounds 1 and 2, is that I'm spending the entire 30 days trying to figure out how to incorporate better dietary goals into my everyday life. I don't want to eat everything bad for me every day of the year other than those I am doing a round of Whole30. I also don't want to say I can never have another cupcake or scoop of ice cream or burger on a bun. The question for me this entire time has been, "When is it going to be worth it, and when is it not?" I would also love to know if it's the dairy or the grains that cause my daily stomach issues, so I know which to avoid more often. My overall thinking has been that if I can find Paleo subs for my favorite "no-no" foods, then what the hell have I got to lose? Sure, I can eat out with the Hubs every once in a while and have a rich, sugary, buttery roll with dinner, but I don't need to do that every night...and I need to let my body lead that charge.
Also, because of my issues with dieting and my eating disorder, I'm liking the idea of not measuring my food or overanalyzing everything I eat. If I can stick to some basic "rules" for myself about the types of food I eat, then maybe I can live a normal existence as if I'm simply someone with a food allergy or other such issue. There are people walking around every day, eating in restaurants and shopping in some of those middle aisles at the grocery store, who simply avoid dairy or wheat or whatever because they have a legit allergy to that food. While I can't claim allergy, the fact that my daily stomach problems have DISAPPEARED in 13 days leads me to believe that my body has problems digesting certain types of foods. If I avoid them most of the time and only use that small percentage for times that really mean something to me emotionally (or because it's an extra special treat), then I may just find the ticket I need to stop overplanning and being overly picky about how much I can eat.
I just wanted to leave you with a list of all the things I have gained in these 13 days:
- I am lighter on my feet.
- My knees aren't creaking as much.
- My back pain has almost gone completely.
- My foot is feeling a lot better.
- I'm regaining some flexibility.
- My stomach pains are gone.
- My head is finally clear and my headaches are growing more rare.
- I have clarity of mind when I'm working.
- I sleep more soundly.
- I have more confidence in my ability to prepare healthy foods or find alternatives.
- My skin has cleared up.
- I have a lot more energy.
Yesterday I would have told you that I was feeling smaller because my clothes were getting baggy, but it's really been hit or miss with my body responding to that. Today I feel a little more bloated for some strange reason...(maybe too many pickles on my bunless burger last night? salt?!), but I have been checking the scale (Whole30 devotees can now scold me, I don't care) and I have lost weight. Roughly 15-16 pounds thus far given the day and time of day. This, while important to me, is the least important to how I actually feel and how capable I am at doing active things.
Did I tell you I'm going rafting this weekend? Eep!